every year, i spend christmas with a heavy heart. its no different this year, what with screwed up birthday parties the day before, and a lonely lonely christmas eve countdown.

can anybody out there feel me,
cos i cant seem to feel myself,
there's gotta be a heaven somewhere
that can save me from this hell.

i just keep losing my way.

Its really not that difficult to ask to be loved, every festive occasion, every happy event, every single year, anybody, please. Your going to hate me for this.